Confused

Today i it found out
You knew
you always knew
how could this be??

I thought i hid it so well
but i guess not
i was just trying to start over

I wanted to be friends
to start out better
but you wont forget

perhaps you want it too?
or is that me?
obsessing over your every move?

I wish i could tell you myself
but i guess
that would ruin it all over again

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
not my best piece of work but its whats going on right now