How can i survie...

In this place...
they call the world..
i look and seek..
for that thing that is mine ..
to have ..
to hold...
to protect..
and to love..
with all my heart..

her..
the one u wait for.
the one u live for..
would fight for ..
kill for..
die for..

she as beautiful as fire..
she is just like fire..
she dances around..
in your heart..
she make life..
alittle easyer..
when she there..
and alittle harder..
when she not..
when u hold it..
it burnds ..
deep..
hot..
hateful..
unfeeling..
uncareing..

now u see it..
now u dont...
its there ..
then shes gone..
nothing can fill ..
the whole that ..
she leaves..
in my chest..
all i want now..
is to cut my rists..

hurt and hurting..
cut and cuting..
this thing we seek..
i have seen it...
toutch it..
been hurt by it..
been burn by it..
been killed inside by it..

and yet i still seek it...
but now the pain ...
has closed my eyes..

i seek it with eyes closed..
closed by the pain..
that binds them shut...

i use to see..
with my heart..
but now its broke..
how will i see ..
in this dark and lonly place..
were only dark people can survie..
how can i survie..