Beautifully depressed

Beautifully depressed
Beautifully depressed
Hopeless and jaded
Neurotic and emotional

Tear stained cheeks
Eyes full of sorrow
And despair
Body torn, fallen apart
From trying to hold it together

Beautifully depressed
Forsaken myself
To the enslavement of beauty and pity

Roses clutched in my hands
Withering, as my world fades and dulls away

Hazy rain
And daze
Are my fallen angels

No longer can I subject myself
To this life
A life of meaningless love and meaningful
I Love You's

Beautifully depressed
I am
So long spent
Living in my thoughts
My heart drowned in the rain

Thunderclouds
Drown my heart
In the sad beauty
My despondent eyes
Hold all my un-told secrets
&
Truths

Deep inside
Wanting more than anything
To live

Not just fake a smile and grace
But see the beauty I life

Wanting to feel
Feel you,
Your lips on me
Your embrace
Driving my nightmares away

Endless cloudy skies
Spill the tears that my heart cries
As I come undone

Bare all to you
Let you have me
Let myself go

You; asleep next to me
My heart fallen into your palms
Protected by you

Depressed beautifully
I let my fears and stubbornness overcome me
Let myself fade

It was you though that let me lay with my head
In your lap
Our fingers entwined

As you hold me
Tight and kissed away these tears
The same tears that now fall
Onto this poem

I look up
Into you;
Into your dark eyes that I can fall and lose all of my thoughts in

A warm embrace
That hits me hard
A deep ache I feel,
Tug at me

Let you take care of me
Be found in endless sunny skies that still bring my rain back to me

Beautifully depressed
I gave up once before
But somehow, somewhere
I was found