Believe it or not
This is how I feel
I loved you
And I still do
For you were the one
Who changed my life
Around you
I was alive
I lived
I was happy
I had dreams bright
Pure
True
And they were all of you
I was alive
I lived
My happiness
Knew no bounds
When you were around
I was happy
You held me
You stroked my hair
You did all of it
You loved me
You were the one
I wanted to spend my life with
With you
I lived
My fire burnt bright
With a passion
My fight
Thrived
My heart
Swelled to know
That you were mine
I lived
Everyday
Just to feel your touch
Now you are gone
Iâ??m dead inside
My heart in shatters
Torn
My fire is snuffed
My fight gone
My strength depleted
No more can I think
Of you
And what we had
And think of your love
I can only think
Of how much you hated me
Toyed with me
You confessed it to me
That you only wanted to see how long
You could toy with me
That you only wanted to see
How much I would fall for you
Well I hope youâ??re happy
I fell
And I fell pretty dang hard
I love you
I always have
I always will
You got under my skin
I would do anything for you
Even if it meant
Taking my own life
I cry
Just to think of you
I still love you so much
And then you tell me
That you ENJOY
Stabbing people in the back
Being an aâ??hole
That you like it
So
Now
Thanks to you
No more
Shall my flesh be revealed
So shall I hold
All within
Even when
The tears threaten
To break way
I know they must not
For your happiness
And my friendsâ?? happiness
Depend
On my feelings
My sadness
My depression
Being held within
Behind
The lead like wall of my armor
So shall my armor
Hide my true feelings
As I sink into the darkness
My tears left unshed
_This is written for my ex boyfriend Zach. He hurt me a lot. We broke up and he called me a series of names of which I believe you can guess. It hurt me a lot, especially seeing as anytime someone mentions him or I read an old email from him I want to break down and cry. I loved him a lot and wanted to be with him. But the entire thing was a lie. Email me or whatever if you have questions. I donâ??t care._
