Indeed, we want control but that control is not always in our hands. Our fate is in many way predetermined. We would love to make a change and to do the things we would love to do but circumstances prevent us from doing so. I totally understand because i feel that i am in the same situation as you. I need to break that cycle that im in but breaking out is indeed one of the most difficult thing to do. But at least after reading your poem, i realised that i'm not alone in my feeling and it helps. Thanks