But why do i suddenly feel like trusting her. i gotta stop this. it's crazy. i feel pathetic. gotta get her out of my mind. gotta get her out of my mind.
sitting in my room staring at the monitor of an old computer. i browsed my downelink again. and then sadness fills the room after a sudden. emptiness inside. why do i have to feel like this? i'm just confused. probably a part of growing up. i thought i reached maturity. i think i have not. i'm like a little kid who likes to get what she likes. by tears or by crook. but then as i child, rejection always happen. i've been rejected. i hafta get her off my mind. she have to leave my mind. love at first sight? i fcking hope not.
i'm fcking crazy. i am so crazy.
she's not worth the heartache. not worth the pain..
