Transition

I find myself in this same trance
With my head and heart closed
So I keep moving to be stable
It's an unfree freedom
Free to wander free to roam
Alone

Everything is easy to obtain if you see the world like me
The papers keep spiraling
and the pump keeps pumping
My Transition
Days of future passed

Love turns to selfishness a little each day
So at times I'm afraid to reach out
We pass each other everyday
Pretending the other doesn't exist

Sometimes I swear you were staring
But it could all be me
Did you hear that voice when I yelled out
When you turned I wasn't looking
but every fiber and instinct was filling my body with a steady pulse of pain
Telling me clearly to turn
but I couldn't bare the same disappointment

In these demon days I'm loosing sight
Of all those who can tell me wrong from right
When everything you know is sinking in the night
Receive and transmit
Receive and transmit

I can't lie sometimes the numbness helps me sleep
My father tells me to remain a man
I must let go and move on
Every time I try there's a tightening in my chest
I know that I am failing

My time was over before it began
Like a fish I swim around in a plastic bag
I can see the way clearly but it's not set for me
You're happy already and I don't need to be there

People tell me I'm quiet
I know sometimes I'm hard to understand
The face keeps moving
To the hopes and fears we're making
It's so hard to move on
Missing what is gone
Life carries on
Like cycling water
It ends up here again

I thought I had it all figured out
Realizing now how little I know
Unlocking the door I turn the key
Send me inside
so I can make sense of things again
Whats left out and what's left in?
The cradles burning
My head sounds like that

No poem or song I write
Can make the things I did wrong right