I am confused,

I am confused,
I feel like life has cut my short,
Its taken something from me,
But I dont know if I had it before,

How can I lose something,
I never had,
I dont even know what it is,
But it used to be there,

And now I feel beaten,
And bruised,
Cut and gored,
Confused,

Death,
Its sucking me under,
Taking my feeling from me,
Its pulling me down,
Taking the air from my body,
Its surrounding me,
And over welling my censes,

Life,
Its all around me,
But it wont come to me,
Pushing me down,
Not letting me up,
But I cant reach it,
Only see others enjoy it,
Its whirling around me so fast,
Pushing me down,
And away,
Its over whelming my censes,

I keep getting up,
Trying to stand,
Keep falling short,
Falling down,

I am so mad,
I want to fight,
I want some one hate,

All this hurt in this world,
I have not even seen the worst it can do,
I am scared and alone,
Tired and swore,
Why does it have to be this way,
And why do I have to stay,