Fighting For....

I live in a world full of confusion..
many times I wake up in the dark and wonder if my life is an illusion.
Yet I touch the warm skin of my husband who sleeps beside me and know that I do not slumber,
I simply grew up to fast, to soon became a grown woman.
I would never trade him for the world this I know.
But sometimes I wonder what else I could have done.
I'm 18 and now a Army wife, I moved 600 miles away from everything I knew, I didn't Finnish school and I might be a mommy soon.
Some say I was capable of so much more...but the way I see it
If I can sacrifice all that I was for him, maybe he will remember what he's fighting for...
Then our son wont have to be in this horrible war.
If I could go back I would do nothing different, I would still go threw all the hell that we did..just so that I know how much I love him.