Tired, god Im so tired
I dont want to hold my tears back
I dont want to smile
I dont want to push the hurt deep down anymore
Im tired of telling you Im fine, just so you wont be hurt
Im tired of watching you through jealous eyes
And a cold heart
You have given me everything, including my bitterness to the world.
You can have it back
Take it please
So I dont feel bad when I tell you the truth
Im tired of being the person who listens to your problems
Im tired of being the person you ridicule, the person you use
Im tired of fighting you and always losing
You win, you win, you win
Im so tired of it all
Im tired of concealing my embarrassment with laughter and my hurt with a shrug every time you insult me.
Im tired of being called a wuss
When Im just afraid of failure
Im tired of just being there not with you
Im tired of watching you get any guy you want and complain to me about not being loved
I\\\'m tired of watching you flirt endlessly with the guy u tried to hook me up with
Im tired of feeling this way
Im so tired of always defending you
Im tired of you seeing all the faults in me
Im just so tired of everything
But I cant tell you this because Im too tired, or maybe Im afraid
Maybe Im afraid that if I tell you, Ill be alone, that Ill be able to live for myself
I guess Im institutionalized for being your best friend, Im afraid to wake-up and live for myself.
So until then, Ill keep my mouth shut and maybe one day I wont be so tired.
Maybe one day I\'ll wake up and realize I can live without you
But until then, life is a dream and i will always be tired.
