I have become what I despise the most,
If lies were a drug I would surely overdose.
You see, I am married with 2 kids but have a man on the side...
By family and friends I have been crucified.
I fell in love with another man,
God knows that wasn\'t my plan.
I have dug my own grave by the lies I have told,
When it comes to him I lack any amount of self control.
I am a liar, a cheat and worst of all I look in the mirror and see...
A nobody...thats me!
I have become what I despise the most,
A liar in my own life...so engrossed.
I know the time is coming near that I need to make my choice,
But, how can I pick when in the end someone will be hurt, while I and the other rejoice???
I have never had to make such a hard decision in my life,
Who should have me for their wife???
I love them both so very much I don\'t know what to do...I am dying Inside and nobody really knows,
That from the inside out I am decomposing.
I can\'t live with myself knowing what I am doing,
Negative thoughts and emotions are only accruing.
I have become what I despise the most,
If lies were a drug I would surely overdose.
