Cutting Till Im Numb

I'm all sad and depressed
I can't handle anymore of this stress
Everyday I'm watching the pain drip to the floor
I cant stop, I cant deal with this shit anymore
When no one expects me to do it i cut away violently
When everyone starts to yell i cry oh so silently
I'm in the shower watching the blood pour down the drain
Every slice becomes deeper and for it takes away my pain
I don't know what to do i cant stop, I'm addicted to it
For when I get stressed, my skin has another slit
I don't know what to do if my mom finds my cuts
Will she send me away forever or just go nuts
I couldn't care less cuz shes the reason for all of this
All I know is she might go crazy and wont be bliss
All I care about are those who are true to me
But if i told them what I'm doing and why they wont agree
So I have to keep this to myself and never tell a soul
But I know if I do that I would just be digging myself a hole
Once I cut to deep and the blood wouldn't stop and everything got blurry
I never told anyone about it for I didn't want them to worry
The weird thing is I enjoyed every second of it, I'm not afraid to die
For I am sick of this life, I'm sick of the fact I always cry
But then I would be leaving everyone I ever loved behind
I couldn't do that cuz they have been there and have been so kind