Leaveing this world

Leaving this world where no one would care.
Waiting for love that no one would share.

Wondering when no one would stare.
And take my place to form a new square.

With friends or foes,
No one really knows.

To take the life,
With the blade of a knife.

I sit and ponder for my decision.
But all I get is a sense of abstract collision.

My thoughts running in my head,
When I just want to go to bed.

Really don’t know what to do,
Cause apparently, I mean so much to you.

I think about it once,
But do nothing for months.

Then it happens again,
Just like way back when.

The time is near,
I fall straight with fear.

I try to make myself bleed,
But I don’t have the guts of a steed.

So I run and hide,
In the room on the side.

And cry myself to sleep.
Cause I cannot yet,
Leave this world.