Why

Am I just scared,
Cause he's the only one that has ever truly cared.
Do I really like him,
Cause the lights grown dim.
Why is that I run from the only one that cares,
Just wake me up from this recurring nightmare.
He's slowing tearing me apart,
As he talks about how I'm breaking his heart.
What am I afraid of,
Is it his love?
Who could be afraid of the best thing in life,
How can I turn my back and rely on the knife.
Why am I running from his love,
And why am I just giving him the shove.
It's right here in from on me,
Telling me this should be.
But why am I not listening,
And how can he not see I'm drowning.
I'm lost in my confusion,
I want to find a different version.
Of my life, this nightmare,
Where he is somewhere but here...