Your soul will live on

I wish I could've been there
I wish I could've seen
What this cruel world did to you
Left you bitter, unloved and mean
You said you were fine
But I saw the pain in your eyes
I could hear it in your voice
Those nights you would cry
You said you were in control
Thats what you lead me to believe
You said things would get better
As I just watched you leave
I saw the slits on your wrists
But you said I wouldn't understand
I wish you would've let be there
At least to give you a helping hand
I know I'm not perfect
And neither were you
But we could've helped each other
I would have let you help me too
No matter how many nights I cry
It will never bring you back
I have cried a million and one tears
And now my world is going black
And still you're not here
Although I wish for you to be
I wish tonight we could cry together
Be here just you and me
But I know that won't happen
At least not anymore
I can vividly remember the day
The paramedics picked you up off the floor
I'm sorry I wasn't a better friend
And I'm even more sorry I wasn't there for you
I should have paid more attention
To what you were going through
I even ran away from home
Hoping to clear my mind
But all I found was memories
And wishing for more time
Time to tell you how much I loved you
And how I always will
Even though your not here
I think about you still
You were my strength
Everything I would turn to
But now my world is breaking
Now that I don't have you
You'll never be replaced
And you'll always be in my heart
I'm just sorry it had to end this way
You ripping your skin apart
Nothing I could ever do
Will take your cuts away
Not even all my tears
No, forever they will stay
You were like my sister
Someone I could always count on
There through thick and thin
But sadly now you are gone
I don't think you know
How much I regret
You not being here
You're someone I could never forget
I want you to know I'll miss you
And someday I'll see you once more
But now you're in a better place
You are no longer broken on the floor
I'm sorry I didn't get to say good-bye
But I couldn't except that you were gone
You will forever be in my heart
And with me your soul will always live on...