Done

How much longer can I control my emotions?
How much longer can I hold back the explosions?
All the rushes
Of hate and anger
Yet I still linger I sit here and watch
As he stands there and talks
Of there perfections
While I grow more disgusted with my own reflection
I try to live in my dreams
But his words keep swirling in my head
I cant seem to forget what he said
She is so pretty and strong
All I want is to change what I did wrong
Each time he has new reasons
To be with them trough the seasons
To hear them say I love you, I need you
Ill never mislead you
Ive said these things in earnest
But its not enough for him
Ill never be better than them
They all seem pure and honest
And I cant compete because some one stole my innocence
Ive seen to many things and heard to many lies
Yet to them there are still so many things that come as a surprise
I cant go back to regain what I lost
So I think Ill give up, Im done
There is no where left to run
Ive put it all together
I have to cut the tether
Hes not happy
Unless Im laughing
But I cant laugh while hes ranting
About their perfection
And feelings that have come to conception
So I am left standing
All alone with his ranting
Swirling in my head
Wishing I were dead
I pray and cry
Oh, dear god why!!
Id give anything for him to be happy
Even my own life, though that may sound sappy