Hey sarah,
i really liked this poem especially the last two lines really got to me. i can relate to a certain extent. i lost someone very close to me also and i'm still blaming myself that they are gone, but it seems you are doing the same thing. just know that they are in a better place now and pray for their forgivness. i'm sure in time you'll accept the fact that they have forgiven you and you can always learn from your mistakes. stay strong.
Love always,
Left_2_Die