MY FIRST LOVE.

**MY TRUE LOVE STORY.**

i fell in love with a kid im going to call shorty.
i knew him for maybe a week and i already felt like i couldent live without him.
i didnt think i would ever have to.
he told me he wanted to marry me.
that he loved me.
that no other girl compared to me.
and i let my guard down.
because i thought he would never hurt me like he had done the girls he had been with.
i knew the girls.
i knew the storys.
but i felt on top of the world when i was his girl.
and no matter what anyone told me i felt like i had to be with him.
i put him before all of my friends.
wich i figured out would hurt me in the long run.
one day i logged in his myspace name.
just to check his stuff for him.
there was a message from a girl named dessie.
the message read.
"hey babe. i had so much fun with you the other night. when are you going to tell your girl about how me and you are together."
immediately i was heartbroken.
the only thing i could think to do is cry.
and thats exactly what i did.
i cried from 9 am.
until midnight that night.
when i finally got ahold of shorty is when the tears stopped.
only because i felt like i didnt want him to kno that i had cried over him.
when i asked him about it he told me she was just a one night stand.
that he was "messed up" and didnt even relle remeber anything.
the "messed up" excuse was one he used alot.
i began not to even ask him about the other stuff i heard.
just because i didnt want to believe it.
alls i wanted was a life with my baby.
and no one else.
everywhere i went alls i could see was him.
everything i thought of had to do with him.
every second of the day consisted of me thinking about him.
until the day i went to his house.
and i lost everything to him.
he started acting shady after this day.
like he didnt want anything to do with me.
he stopped calling.
stopped telling me he loved me.
he didnt even kiss me goodbye after that.
then on the 14th of august i called him.
it was 3 weeks later.
he didnt answer the phone.
his friend did.
the only thing he said was.
"he broke up with you."
i was heartbroken.
if it hadent been for my cousin being there i would have cried my eyes out.
but i didnt want anyone to kno how in love i was with this kid.
after my cousin left.
i cried more than when my grandpa died.
i feel relle bad for saying that but i did.
the next day i got on my myspace to get everything off my profile about him.
and i had a message from a girl i have never seen before.
her name was jamie.
the message read.
"you need to get that stuff about shorty off of your profile because ya'll broke up three weeks ago."
i immediately thought of what we had done three weeks ago and i could feel my heart breaking for the third time with this kid.
i replied back and told her that we had just broken up the night before.
she told me that they had been together since july 25th.
the day i went to his house was july 27th.

i still feel like im going crazy over this kid.
i miss him like i have never missed anyone.
and he couldent care any less.
he wont even talk to me anymore.
even tho he says he once loved me.
i do miss him.
and i have no idea what i am going to do without him.
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thank you for reading this far.
please vote.
and leave comments so i kno what i should do.
and how you feel.
thank you so much for being there.
this is so much easier to say over the internet.
than it is to say to someones face.