As she sits in the dark
She wonders how she got this way
Had she always been this depressed
Not looking forward to each day
She always use to smile
But it was all just a show
The real lies in her past
But that many will never know
Many tears fall
From her miserable hazel eyes
She would never confess
That most nights she cries
She leaves to get away
Because she wants to be somebody
Eighteen years later
She's still not anybody
She reaches for a helping hand
Because she knows that she's out of control
Throwing up in the bathroom
Hoping that nobody will know
She fears she's a failure
That she won't go anywhere with her life
She breaks down in the bathroom
As she starts to look for something to get her through her strife
She feels so alone
She's in too much pain
To keep living like this
She's driving herself insane
The hurt she can't handle
Overflows to her knife
She writes on her arm
"I want to give up my life"
She won't touch food
Her reality isn't real
She claims nothing will taste
As good as thin feels
When she looks in the mirror
She doesn't know who is there
It's as if shes confused
By her own broken stare
She wants to this girl
As she pulls her near
This can't be her
But then she realizes this is her mirror
She's so skinny
But still feels fat
A cutter non the less
An addicted one at that
Shes turned into such a mess
Her life is completely gone
She's broken beyond repair
And she thinks she can't move on
So she continues to sit in the dark
And waits for her life to mend
Crying her lonely tears
Wishing for her end...
