Sitting here thinking of what i have done

I am sitting here thinking of what i have done! I fell in love with a boy that i hardly knew! And where am i now? At home missing the boy i love, fighting with my dad. I don't know what to do anymore. It just feels so weird and it hurts so much not to see the person you love! Soon it will be a month and i just want to know what to do. But i don't seem to get an answer.There are mixed feelings, but i am questioning myself about all this never seem to get an answer. We both knew this would be hard even before we went out! We were sitting on the roof talking, we were sitting in the car crying! He asked me if this is what i wanted and i said yes! I am wondering where would we be if i said no! Would we be still together? Another question i wont get an answer to! I am wondering if i made the right choice! My heart says yes but my mind says something else. Why does love always have to hurt that much? You think you found the right guy but that you loose the person you loved the most! I don't know what i go myself into! the only thing i know is that i am loosing my mind. No one seems to understand that i am in love! But i am scared to loose the one i love because of the decision i made. Just that one word yes can change everything! And now i am sitting here thinking about what i have done!

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