I'm in far over my head
Losing entire control
This feeling that now consumes me
Has become part of my soul
It's like I'm fighting an effortless battle
One I've seem to have terribly lost
I can't believe all I did
And at such a high cost
They say, "Time heals EVERYTHING"
But I'm still waiting
Because no longer can I bare this feeling
It's just simply contemplating
I put so much faith on something
And now I'll fight this pain within
It's still so much to handle
I sometimes have to stop to take it all in
You're two different people
And they're not even close the same
I was so blinded through it all
I guess I'm partially to blame
Now here I sit
With nothing at all to show
I can honestly say
I never thought I'd be letting you, of all people, go
I thought we were PERFECT
But I guess the joke was on me
Because as I sit and dream of us
Then sinks in reality
I want so much for you to be successful
Because I know how much you really can do
But somewhere between my wishful and wanting hopes
Has to come yours too
I obviously can't change you
But I can simply wish upon you the best
I know it's not what I want but
I think It's time to lay this at rest
I believed you when you said you cared
It's obvious that can't be
Because no longer is a single thought in your head, a thought of me
I don't know how I could possibly put it
I just needed you to know how I feel
I guess I'm mainly to blame
For building up a person that was never even real
