I write you this letter to tell you I'm very disappointed. Disappointed in the choices you've made my whole life. Disappointed for the signs you sent my ever so changing mind. A never ending cycle of emotions; fear, love, hope, anger, depression, lust, happiness. Why were you always opening up at such a bad time? Why would you close so early? Why did you let the stitches unravel? I should have duct taped you shut and left you to fend for yourself. Was this your plan? My darling heart, why where you so cold years ago? You froze, you were so cold, I felt like I was carrying around an iceberg of hurt. I guess you finally broke free and started to melt right? I never understood you, but I guess it was a way to protect me. Since then you were vulnerable. You let anyone in, you let anyone hurt you. But why? Was this a way of waking me up? Showing me that I can love again? Or was it because you wanted me to be let down again because you missed feeling empty? You missed being scar free, well for that time being. You didn't want anymore scars, you were tired of the stitches. You knew that if you'd break once more, it would be forever. Oh darling, why don't you have a shut off switch? Do you understand how much easier this would be? How convenient? I hear that some hearts do have this switch. I wouldn't be writing you this if this was true. Maybe I should forget about you, and rely on my mind. He is just as confused as you are though. Why can't you guy's ever agree? Why does my mind always have to be the rational one? Why? I write you this letter hopeing it will change your mind. Maybe it will heal the hurt that you caused yourself by self infliction, or maybe it will make it worse. This is all in attempt to make us as a whole better. I know you hear my cries. But why am I crying? My dear heart, listen to my cries. Just listen, and you'll know. You may make up your mind on whats right and whats selfish. You need to pick between the two, because my mind is once again, confused. For this choice you will be making will make a big impact on my life, this choice will be forever.
