Not that bad

Wow...it`s amazing how one day you wake up, and although your life isn't perfect...It's really not that bad..and then somehow, by the time you go to bed...your whole world has just been turned upside down...and you just really don't know what to do...In a split second...your dreams crash, hope fails and sanity leaves you...I can't think anymore because my thoughts make no sense...everything is so blurred and unclear..all I want to do is forget...I've lost my trust...The only man in my life, my father...The one supposed to always protect me...I need to feel secure...I need love..comfort...I just want my life back, I want to smile and not fake it..I don't want tears to hold back...I want to be something...more than a failure. But right now I just don't see how...How can you breath when you have no idea what's in store for you? How can you find hope...in nothing...I guess you've just got too keep smiling and hope for better days. Long for the days when you'll feel the full warmth of the sun and be free of all these problems.I'm sure they'll come...someday.