Split personality

Since i first met you
I've always wanted to die
who knows why
maybe it's cause you're not mine
maybe it's cause you make me sick
i just don't know
sometimes i wish i never met you at all
other times i think I'd be no one without you
why is it all mixed up like this?
maybe there two of me
one wants you so bad
one wants to die just to get away from you
why can't there be a side of me thats happy?
I just wait for the day where we drift apart
where i wont be needing you anymore
cuz i know that day I'll finally be happy
but for now I'll always love you.....
and hate you

** written for Kayla