Day One

It hurts so much and it hasn't even been a day,
Never before have i felt such mental and physical pain,
All i can do is lay and stare at the wall,
As the memories start to pop up, I curl into a ball,
I start to breathe heavy as the tears run down my face,
As i start to cry uncontrollably i pull the pillow over my face,
I cant believe its over just like that its through,
I guess it hurts so much cuz I'm still in love with you.

I only wish i could get one last kiss,
So ill be able to remember the feeling of your lips,
One more chance to give you a hug and hold onto you tight,
One last long phone conversation that we would have at night,
To here you say you love me and miss me so,
I shouldve tried to stall when you said you had to go.

It feels so weird cuz usually when you dump me you'll call and take it back in a hour or so,
So all ive been doing is crying and staring at my phone,
It hurts so bad i cant even sleep,
All i can do is lay in my bed, rock back and forth and continue to weep,
Ill miss all our inside jokes that only we got, not any of our friends,
I cant believe i have to wait 3 years just to see you again,
Everything i see and hear reminds me of you,
If this is how it is on half of day one, I'm scared of day two.....

(yeah i wrote this on here after crying for like 5 hours)