Hate and Love

I hate you
But I love you
I'm so confused
I long to see your blood dripping from a knife
But yet I long to be in your arms again
Everyday I hope you die
But everyday the sweet memories of you are in my mind
Part of me hates you
Part of me loves you
I dont know what to do
I want to move on
But I can't
Something keeps holding me back
O how I hate you
I long to see you suffer
I long to see you in pain
But o how I love you
I long to look into your eyes again
I long to see your smile
I want revenge
I want to kiss those lips again
I hate you
But I love you
What am I to do?