Only I Am To Blame

All I want to do is die
Curl up in a ball and cry
Sadly falls a single tear
That tells me I'm not wanted here

Depression,
Pain
Regression,
And strain

My whole world is going black
It's too late to take it back
The hurtful things have all been said
And now they haunt me in my head

Fake a smile,
Pretend its ok
All the while,
Still so much to say

I try to hold it all down
Until there's no more I can't take
Of the constant reminders,
Soon I will break

Reaching forward,
Breaking down
I've fallen into,
The realm with no sound

Take me now please
I'm ready to give
I don't think this life
Was meant for me to live

Disgrace,
Shame
Only I,
Am to blame.

*please help with the title if you could.