Now that he no longer holds my hand
i wish just one person could understand
what i now feel deep inside of me
why cant someone open up and finally see
that i miss everything that we once had
now that its gone I'm nothing but sad
it was so special and so real
does he even care about the way i feel
i have no answers to the questions i ask
but now that i know i cant have him back
all my dreams have flown out the door
i wish someone could give me answers I'm looking for
without him I'm nothing at all
nothing but tears continue to fall
I'm no longer the person that i once was
why bother to care if no one else does
I'm just gonna make myself stop feeling the pain
thinking of him its driving me completely insane
i need to find new things to fill up my day
i need to move on i hate it this way
but moving on is something i cant do
i got so upset that i said we're through
and now i regret everything about that night
now all I'm trying to do is make it alright
but i guess now that cant be done
cause he found a new girl to be his only one
what we used to have has now been replaced
he found someone new to put a smile on his face
so why continue to find words to say or things to do
cause none of it is helping me to make it through
how can he simply move on with his life
when he was the one that could see me as his wife
that was the thing that once scared me
i didn't get why its so hard for him to see
that now i couldn't care less
or that without him my life is just a big mess
i wish it never would of affected what we had
I'm so sorry i never meant for it to hurt so bad
the fact that i was just too scared to let you in
i thought in the long run we would both win
nothing at all in my life feels right
seems like I'm the only one continuing to fight
cause now your happy with another girl
why cant it be me that completes your world
if you can let it go then why cant i
why cant i do what you did and just say good bye
this is getting old me holding on
why isn't it as easy for me to simply be done
or am i wrong about it all
do you have tears that continue to fall
do you honestly still care
are you still wishing that i was there
do you miss everything that i do
do you miss hearing me say i love you
do you miss all the laughs and all the smiles
do you still think about all the times my number was dialed
deep inside do you want it all back
or have you really forgotten what we once had
the late night hours spent on the phone
do you miss knowing that you were no longer alone
do you still think back when i was able to cal you mine
or do you even still look back on all the fun times
like us riding together in your car
or you holding me close in your arms
even though now we're torn apart
you will always be kept within my heart
cause your the one I'm still dreaming of
i now see exactly what it is, its Painful Love!?
