I'm Only HUMAN

I promised myself that I wasn't going to do this.

I promised myself that being detached is the best way to live.

I promised myself that no matter what I wouldn't give you a reason to care.

I promised myself that the pain is mine alone, my own burden to bear.

I promised myself that I'd find my own way to deal with how I feel.

I promised myself that I wouldn't fade back into the unreal.

I promised myself that I would be the one to pick up the pieces of me.

I promised myself that I would hide under the covers as you crawl out of the creases to leave.

I promised myself that somethings aren't meant to be, not everything was made to last.

I promised myself that I was better off when it was just me, but once you give a part of you away, there's no turning back.

I promised myself that I could handle this.

I promised myself that I wouldn't long for your kiss.

I promised myself that I would finally face the ugly girl in the mirror.

I promised myself that to someone she was beautiful, but still I cower in fear.

I promised myself that I would stop the monster from taking me over.

I promised myself that I wouldn't give in, I would stay sober.

I promised myself that I was strong enough to rise above, to overcome.

I promised myself that I would learn not to crash into the sun.

I promised myself that I wouldn't reach out for the flames.

I promised myself that I would be brave.

I promised myself that I didn't need you at all.

I promised myself that I could protect me by building up another wall.

I promised myself that I wasn't wrong.

I promised myself that I wasn't going to blindly follow along.

I promised myself that I could erase my own scars.

I promised myself that I wouldn't give away my own heart.

I promised myself that I wouldn't give in to you.

I promised myself that I wasn't in love, it couldn't be true.

But on my slate of sin,
What's a few more promises broken?
When there's no starting again,
My promises are better left unspoken.

And I've already cheated myself out of a life,
Why steal my chance with you?
When I'm running out of time,
I want someone I can turn too.

Or am I playing a dangerous game,
I can't get out of?
Have i fallen into a trap of shame,
That costs me my chance at love?