WHO SHOULD I TRUST?

She walked outâ?¦

And left me at the door

I cried and began to pout

She turned and said baby cry no more.

She walked away && down the street

I couldn\'t help but stop and think

What did I do?

What did I say?

Why does she have to act this way?

She said she loves me â?¦

And I know it\'s true

But what I can\'t understand

Is why the things she says just makes me feel blue

The smell she had that was so sweet

Has come to smell of the scent of weedâ?¦

She told me she\'s clean

&& she swears she doesn\'t do itâ?¦

but she got caught by the cop && blew it

she had to go to jail

I couldn\'t see her as I wanted

I could only write some letters

A few notes and pictures here and there

Sometimes she wrote back

But only if she felt like it

She said she loves me

I know it\'s true

All I ask is that she shows me too

She said she this is the last time

She promised

I believed her

I mean why shouldn\'t I right?

She\'s my own mother

She got out

And was clean for no more than a week

And right back to jail she went

She couldn\'t stay afloat

In lifes rocky boat

All she could possibly do was sink

I always thought its not that hard to say no

But in her case it was

Addiction is horrible

It runs in my family

I\'m scared if I try something

I might get addicted to it

Its somewhat of a protection

To keep me from drugs

But since she was already sucked into it

It was so hard to pull away

I don\'t see what\'s so great about it

What\'s the turn on && such?

I mean does she really like jail?

Maybe she just doesn\'t want meâ?¦

No that\'s impossible

She wants me

She told me

But how can she have me while she is on drugs â?¦.

How can she hold me when she\'s shaking from withdrawals

Year after year

I have seen her in rehab

Promising she\'s changed and this is the last time

She lied â?¦ and you know

I\'m not gullible

You see why I can\'t trust people

And I find it so hard

Even if they are great

You have to be my friend

And you have to be true

If you lie or take advantage of me

Our friendship will tear into two

Be a true friend

And don\'t hurt me at all

Because I don\'t need more pain

Than the pain I\'ve gone through

And I have enough you see

but the pathetic thing is

she doesn\'t have a clue â?¦