Bottles and knifes

The bottle beside you
the knife in your hand
around your lips turning blue
this is it, no turning back.

you look at me in the eyes
your own starting to cloud over
we never said goodbye to the guys
i never said bye to my lover.

i can feel my life drain
and i can see the same in yours
but there's no longer pain
the world is now minus two hoars.

the last thing i see is black
i sense you beside me
there is no turning back
we did it together, like we said, you and me.

woke up in a hospital bed
you weren't beside me
tubes and bandages, throbbing head
where are you, why aren't you with me?

a nurse walks over to me
whispers in my ear
your friend is in recovery
would you like to go see her.

so in a wheelchair i go
all around the wards
feeling anticipation to see you
all the way to yours.

and when i see you
i am full of regret
how could i of done this to you
the image of you, i will never forget.

you had the tubes too
and bandages also
there was blood on you
all over your torso.

nurse said it was nothing
just from when you were sick
i still wasn't believing
that this was it.

i meant to die
i needed to die
you were meant to die
we were both meant to die.

together like we said
hand in hand
no regrets
by each other we would stand.

alas it was not to be
so we should take it in our stride
move away, new identity
regain our lost pride.

we will be best friends forever
no one will separate us
not even the angel of death
can end our friendship
not then
not now
not ever.