Its doesnt matter

I don't want to live my life
Just only crying
I cut my skin w. the knife
& no one knowing

my tears fall down
just wishing my life was done
i hate to live to be just around
i just want to be gone

no more seeing the light
if I'm not even happy
why live to the end of night
i know that no one cares for me

all i ever get is tears
more w. the days
& no longer the knife is my fear
wanting death is only thing i want my way

i just want to slit my throat
just to stay there lying on the floor
ill leave nothing but a note
saying I'm glad i live no more

i hate seeing others full of happiness
its only makes me feel even worse
I'm only full of sadness
my life is only a curse

no one even cares
i should just die
just let my body sit there
i hate living through all the lies

i want to be gone
no longer having memories
my life is soon to be done
N there would be no more of me