i am writing this to out of my own heart,
anything writing on this piece of paper, from page to page, is the real me, no fakes. you have been running from me for so long, but it seems i learn more about you each day, even though your face isn't here.i told you i would love you forever and i didn't lie about that one. ill give you my heart when you need one, a voice to speak, and ear to hear, a lung to breath, ill be your shield and block every shot you take. ill be your shadow, so you no that your never alone. ill be the whisper in your ear, guiding you were to go when your lost. and i will be each step you take. you cant understand how much you hurt me, and you might think you didn't do anything to cause it, but i fake smiles for you, so you'll never see it. and seeing that there is someone else doing my job is tuff. and its not that easy to not cry. sometimes i believe that that person next to you is me, justs like it was before, all the memory's we had, Ive never missed one. i can sometimes feel that same skip in the beat in my heart just like when we first met. its hard not to tell people about you. sometimes i even convince myself you never left. but i quickly snap out of those easy. if i was a ghost, id chose to be your guardian angel, to protect you from whatever. but wishes can be wished and dreams can be dreamed, but one things for sure, there will never be a you and me..
love me