I would have loved you

I can't explain the hurt to you

Or the reason I do the things I do

My heart longs so bad to be filled

But I can not do the things you
willed

I try with all my might

And plead with myself to make it right

But the pain covers up the truth I know

And hides the feelings I want so bad to show

But you don't see

So I keep pretending to be free

I hold this mask on my face

Wishing somehow for you grace

And I hold the secret of whats inside

Just to keep the tears I should have cried

I want you to know that I wanted you

So bad but no one knew

Maybe you could keep me alive

For you better I'd strive

But this lie I can not keep

So inside I let myself weep

Just so this life I can do

Because I would have loved you

Knowing that one day you would be

The reason I want to be free

So I wish upon a star

That the future won't seem so far

And that I can beat this game

And that one day you will truly have a name

But remember little one that you knew

I would have loved you

Despite the hurt and pain

And the deep dark rain

You would have made it all complete

So in my dreams we will one day meet

And I will tell you

That I would have loved you