Lost in thought
this disease I've caught
tearing me apart
this isn't who i am at heart
hiding away this person I've become
i feel so alone, so careless, so dumb
how can this possibly be?
how could i let them do this to me?
on the outside I've totally transformed
they all think that I've conformed
trying to make me just like them
the person i am they tried to condemn
but no one can change what's really inside
although i always have to hide
they'll never know what i really think
but i swear in my life there's a missing link
everyone thinks that i have it all
but no one hears my muffled call
i scream it so loudly but no one can hear
i sit all alone with no one to be near
no one around that can understand
the storm inside i have to withstand
here i stay longing to die
alone in my room i shiver and cry
i think of all the times i cut
and spilled my blood as i squeezed my eyes shut
so here i am again
this fight i cannot win
pulling the blade across my wrist
by death I've been kissed
you can see it in my eyes
hiding behind the mask of lies
the truth i can't reveal
my broken heart just cannot heal
my blood now flows and drops like rain
unmasking all my hidden pain
changing all the truths i knew
i breathe my final, my life now through
