I can't believe what's happened
I look back and how I got here I do not know
All I know is I have finally gotten to the place where I'm truly happy
I can finally let go of all the anger
All the pain
That was just locked up deep inside
Never to be released
Or so I thought
Until that fateful day when it just hit me
That all of it was finally over
All the sorrow
I had gotten through it
With all my body, spirit and soul intact
How I did it
I'll never know
I've grown so much
A year ago if someone would have asked me where I see myself in the near future
I would have simple replied
Dead
Some how I went from that to this
To someone who actually smiles
And means it
I don't think I've done that for such a long time
I can't even remember the last time
Now the only time I cry
Is from laughter and joy
Who knew after all my suffering I'd end up like this
The people that really knew me can't believe it
And neither can I
I'm always happy
Always smiling
I'm not pretending anymore
I'm not acting
I'm actually being me
And enjoying it
It really is amazing
And it feels great
To have found myself after all those years of being lost
I'll never forget this feeling
Even if it doesn't last long
I'll always remember that day when it struck me
That I was finally going to be okay
