Hell is Haunting Me

I sit here and wonder why,
all I do is shake and cry.
My heart aches with lonliness,
and a family is what I forever miss.
We had it all for all you could tell,
But it was nothing but a living hell.
Daily fights that would break my soul,
and eventually they toke their toll.
Your eyes always caused such a fear,
that my pulse would quicken when you drew near.
I never understood that you were sick,
And that I was the one who made you tick.
Every blow and kick to my face
Made me run to my special place.
The dark and lonely untouchable place in the back of my mind,
A place that you could never find.
Nights were so lonely without you by my side,
And I always found out about how you lied.
All those times that you went away,
I would always cry and beg you to stay.
I needed you to be a strong and loving man,
But how can I love a man who will never let me stand?
You stole my soul and broke my heart,
A relationship again I could never start.
I loved you with everything I had,
And you always made me so so sad.
So now I say goodbye and farwell,
Because you have already put me thru so much hell.
I beg GOD everyday to take away all this pain,
For I do not want to be living like this another day.
So help me please because I do not want to grieve,
my heart is aching and I cannot breath.