I Find Myself (Still Loving You)

Such aggravating feelings
love and hatred...can they mix?!
Nothing but pure confusion
and a heart that's hard to fix

You went your way and I went mine
I told myself I didn't care
I said I no longer love you
tried hiding what was really there

I find myself still wondering
Why we are now so far apart
Memories of you and me
play in my head right from the start

From the beginning when you loved me
and all this was a dream come true
I find myself oblivious
not knowing things I thought I knew

I find myself still waiting
by the phone wishing you'd call
Just so I can hear your voice
wanting to forget it all

I find myself rejecting
every offer of love I get
'Cause all I can do is want you back
thinking that with you my life is set

I find myself still crying
after I said I'd stay away
The truth is I can't handle it
I never thought to feel this way

I find myself just trying
to forget every single thing
But everytime I think of you
smiles are all you seem to bring

Then I realize I'm just lost
can't find my way I can't get through
And when I want to give it up
I find myself still loving you