I know how you feel. I once had a pretty nasty addiction to cocaine, but if you just learn to take one day at a time and one step at a time, it'll get easier. My prayers are with you

Hun you've got a lot of spirit and a lot of soul. You have an understanding of addiction unlike anyone else. you understand how it controls you and how it kills you. You're an awesome writer and you need to keep it up! Thanks for sharing your story with all of us :)