My confession of doubtful love

Tucked deep inside
are the doubts that i hide
i love him but secrets will unfold
and i refuse for those secrets to be told

i opened up and gave showed him the true me
but what happens when he finally sees
sees the unsure beating of my heart
that has been beating like that from the very start

he tells me he loves me, but i have these doubts
i feel like I'm not on the in, I'm left out
i want him to reveal his true self

i worry of unfaithfulness but don't tell him of these thoughts
i believe things i can't confirm, i don't want to get caught
i fear he will discover of my growing uncertainty
sometimes i wonder if he also worries about me

i don't want this to end
so keep your lips sealed as i expose
all my doubts as they continue to grow
don't say a word i want to keep him
i don't want to hurt him or let chaos lose again

does he truly love me as he swears to
if something happened suddenly, would he find someone new?
i know these worries seem insane
but in the past, it always ends the same