Ever since we broke up.
It seems like every time i see you.
I get a feeling,
Like someone stabbing me in the back.
Ive wanted you for so long,
And all you can do is let me fall.
I must be going crazy.
Cause every where i look,
I see memories of us.
You used to say you loved me,
And i just didnt think you really ment it.
Like you were just joking.
But now i wish i woulda said it back to you.
You knew all the right things to say.
You knew that if you said the little things that mattered most to me,
You would get me wrapped around your finger.
And it worked.
Now i sit here,
With a bunch of pain,
Just kept inside of me.
I want to scream out loud.
But all i seem to do,
Is make little marks on my wrist.
You let me get here,
Get to this stage in life.
I hate you so much.
I dont know how i coulda ever loved someone,
Who makes girls go through this much pain.
Its like you wanted me to break.
But don't ever let yourself get too attatched to one guy.
I know this sounds stupid, and I'm not too much older than you,
but if you're the same way I was in the Secondary school years, you get very attatched to your boyfriends.
And that's perfectly acceptable, but later you'll realize it's never as deep as you think.
I used to think that I was in love. Now I realize that I never have been, and I'm not now, even though I have a wonderfuly terrific boyfriend.
I'm still waiting to fall in love :)
So don't ever let one guy have control over you.
Let your mindset be such that:
You are by far better than any one of them, and they don't deserve to have control of your emotions.
So I don't know why I had this urge to tell you that, I just did.
I hope you have had a Happy Christmas. Keep up your writing. You're doing really well. 5/5