Numbness

Because of you the numbness has returned
its taking over
i no longer think or care
u hold me close
but I'm not there
...well in truth i am
but all i am anymore is a shell
one so fragile you could break me with out noticing
i look so solid
so safe and hard
but I'm a shell
and ill break oh so easily
keep me safe and keep me warm
maybe some day I'll return
but till then please wait for me
i know you will if i just ask
some how i can't bring my self to do it
maybe i don't love you...
maybe it's because i know i haven't been true
or maybe it's because i still love you...
i don't know...
it's like...
since you found out
I'm free of this task of telling you
i go and flirt with other guys right in front of you
but you don't care
i say "i love you" but there's nothing there
does that mean i don't love you anymore?...
i want to know do i or...don't i??
how can i tell i mean your supposed to know right?
i mean your are right?!?!
because i thought you were able to until now...
now i wander if i ever loved you or if it was just words
i mean ya i love you are just words but normally they have a feeling attached
now i have to find out why this disease called love took my soul away
now i have to find where it is
and when i find it I'll ask it why it went away
and then i might be at peace again