Jock (suicide part I)

He was a jock
and everybody loved him
all the girls giggling at his every joke
and wishing that he would talk to them just once
all the guys were jealous
though they'd never admit it
and he seemed happy
full of joy
loving every minute of his "perfect" life
but did anyone really know him
this hot amazing football player
no not really
they didn't know
that he was full of hurt
unbelievable pain
and thoughts of taking his own life every single day
everyone would miss him
and wonder why he did
wanting him to come back
but these feelings he hid
happiness he did lack
but no one ever knew
until his girlfriend
found him there
sitting in his room
crying on his bed
she ran to him
and held him in her arms
confused at why her boyfriend
was holding a gun in his hand
Rachel I'm so sorry but this I have to do I don't want you to cry
I'm sorry I have to die
What are you talking about she said scared that he was serious
please just think about this for a minute
sweetheart I have
I think about dying each and everyday can't help crying
and wishing my life away
so please just hug me and give me a kiss
shut my door behind you and cover your ears
tell my mom I love her and my friends I love them too
I'm sorry Rachel I love you
There's no way I'm leaving you here like this
you can't leave me I love you so much
Rachel pleaded and begged
for her jock boyfriend to spare his life but no matter what she said
it couldn't change his mind
so he gently led her to his door
he kissed her and closed the door
she ran to the phone dialing 911
but then she heard the shot
he aimed right at his head
she ran back up the stairs
in fear he was already dead
her worries were correct
and this jock ended his life
the police came and she showed them to his room
they knew there was no hope
this boy committed suicide
but at least he got what he wanted
and his pain was gone
forever