Tears consume my body like a shadow in the night, lost in a world of lies where only my pain shines through. Captivated by my want for everyone else to be happy. I don't know how to be happy; everything I do turns into pure disaster. I'm trapped in my own misery where not even I can find the strength to open my eyes far enough to see the light. I feel meek and coherent devastated by the reality of things. Life is so confusing sometimes and I just want to take a break from it, get away and put everything on pause for a little bit. In reality I know I can't, once you're gone your gone forever there isn't anything anyone else can do. Life is frustrating inoperable and weird. No one knows the pain I feel inside it gets better or so they say which I'm starting to lose trust in everything everyone else says, they all lie!!!!!! I can't stand it. I try to be good and quiet but where does that get me. I'll tell you where, nowhere it leaves me stranded in a world of deceit and pain… where life is never guaranteed. I'm lost in a vortex of dreams and I don't want to wake up Cause dreams are better than reality, no doubt about it. Life goes on it's a proven fact… this world is full of people who act whack! I'm confused yet again! Oh well too much for trying… this is my bitter end……
