I Really Need To Talk

Hey?
How are you?
Is anyone there?
I really need to talk
Hello?

Words spill
In secret
No one can know
But I need
To talk to someone
I never knew
Loneliness
Could cut so deep
I need to tell someone
I think
I need help
No one is here for me
They never were
That's why
I need them
Now
Hands shake
Those who know
Are not available
No one else can know
Things weigh
On my mind
On the scales
Smothering me
I must release
Whatever
Runs through my veins
In place of blood
Will tears
Drip down my wrists?
I ate too much today
I must confess
Before guilt consumes me
Like a fire
Fed
With oxygen
I was just a child
I grew up
When there was no one
Left to talk to
Hurt
I wait
For an ear
To talk to
No one can really help
But I crave
Conversation
If only someone
Understood my secret
I thought she did
But she just wants
Me to recover
I can't
I can't
I just needed to talk
Betrayal
That would teach me
Burn my lips
With coal
Cleanse my soul
I am unclean
Inside
Held
Against the ground
Sullied
By my secret
Words spill
In secret
No one can know

Hello?
I need to talk to you
Are you there?
....?
OK..bye