It's been 5 years
Since the angels took you away...
I cried millions of tears,
And i still do till this day.
It's so weird when you think back,
On everything we grew upon.
What was white is now black,
What was right is now wrong.
I still hate getting out of bed,
I still hate your house being next to mine.
I still have you in my head,
I still think about you all the time!
So many things remind me of you,
And so many times i want to break down and cry!
It's taking a lot to still get through,
Even after all the time that has passed by.
Time doesn't mean anything to me!
Everyday, i miss you more and more!
Never will i be seriously smiling,
Like i used to before.
Alot has changed since you've been gone...
You left me when you were my age too...
So much has gone wrong,
And the only person i want to talk to is you.
I've been raped, beaten, and left on the floor...
I went through so many addictions to stuff...
I always kept going back for more
And i was so far deep into the rough!
Randy, my heart has weakened dramatically,
And they don't think I'm living a long life...
Who knows, maybe I'll be like you and leave tragically
Or maybe I'll leave this world on the right night...
I wonder who exactly I would be,
If you were still here with me...
Would i be too drugged up to see?
Or maybe i would actually be happy...
You were my best friend,
My light, my heart, my soul...
When you put your life to an end
In me, you left a hole
I'll see you in my dreams tonight,
You're grudge personality with a smile on the side...
But nothing makes this alright,
Nothing works, I've already tried...
