Let Me Tell

Let me tell you something
Something I've never said out loud
Something I don't know is real
And came without a sound

Let me tell you of the day
I sat on my bed and grabbed something sharp
I didn't really know what I was doing
Something strange, something beautiful, musical like a harp

Let me tell you how I sat there
And pulled it across my skin
I waited for no one
I wanted to forget all my sins

Let me tell you how it stung
When I finally woke up to what I was doing
On how it hurt so bad to sleep that night
Hoping for it not to be showing

Let me tell you how I told them it was an accident
How I said I didn't know what happened
I told them I didn't know, and no it's not cutting
But I didn't want them to know I'm more saddened

Let me tell you about the night after
When I brought it out to light
And how I did the same thing
I did the other night

Let me tell you how I felt
After I put it away
On how I felt so much better
That I could bleed another day

Let me tell you all my stories
Night after night I did it once more
And how night after every single night
I still didn't know if I was sure

Let me tell you this
When I wake up every morning to the day
I check my arms and legs
To see what they gave away

Let me tell you what I see
Every morning I look to make sure
I see little red lines where there weren't
And how they hurt and they sore

Let me tell you of what I did
And what I still do night after night
When everyone goes to sleep
And turns out the light

Let me tell you where I hide it
In the bottom draw of my dresser
Of when I'm scared this isn't real
And how I get just a little more depresser

Let me tell you what I tell everyone
That I'm okay, for now
I'll tell you all these things
But you will never know how

Let me tell you one more thing
Before I have to turn off my light
That I'm still going to grab it and use it
Every single night