I wonder

You say that you love me
But even today I wonder
Because your actions scream louder
then the harsh words you speak

Am I just a play toy
for you to use and abuse
Or do you hurt me
because you love me

All we do is argue
its all I can do to please you
Do you even mean it when you say
"I love you"

Your controlling ways
they hold me back
My frustrations for you
begins to stack
You say you love me
then stab me in the back

You build me up then tear me down
you make me swear
I will never show a frown
not even when you push me down

I wonder
how much more will i take
will i let you break me
until theres nothing left to break
Will I continue to let you
paste on this smile so fake

*I havent written anything in a LONG time, so Im a little out of touch. But let me know what you think, I would really appreciate it!*