A haunting memory

The warm vomit flows through my fingertips as she lies dying in my arms
i don't know what to do
I'm paralyzed out of fear, in complete shock
staring into her eyes i watch as they slowly roll to the back of her head
i feel the last grip of her fist around my finger loosen,
her hand drop to the floor and her head lean to the side.
every inch of her body now cold
and myself going numb losing all sense.
i regain consciousness hearing the zipping of the body bag
opening my eyes only to see her pale face disappear behind the black leather
days from then on came and went till the funeral
with me feeling nothing
i stood at her coffin just staring
searching for her crisp green eyes to look into
but having to accept that they gone forever
i reach down to hold her hand and find it cold
no longer full of her warm loving touch
at that moment i accepted that i couldn't do it
so i kissed her cold forehead and walked away
i never came back, i never will go back,
and i never can truly say good-bye
not when i could of stopped it

**this is just a poem i wrote in the heat of the moment there has been no editing*********