Confuse

I feel tired
I have many things to do
that needs to be finished
coz' it is necessary

I feel bad
I can't do what i want
that will make me feel good
coz' it is not part of the curriculum

I want to do what i love to do
I want to choose
I want to be free
Please help me

Why can't i do things that i really love, Answer me
I need an answer to understand things that happen to me.